The week really began with last Friday, which in all honesty
was shit. The day seemed to be a domino effect of bad events and so, despite
not having planned to go home until the Easter holidays, early on Saturday I
found myself on a train home. The break away from the flat was much-needed in
terms of keeping my emotional well-being on track, which didn’t apply so much
to my own problems but to the weight of other people’s that had just become a
little too much to bear. This was also made worse by a practical assessment in
which the lecturer yelled and swore at me for doing things ‘wrong’, although
rest assured I really don’t care as others seem to have had the same treatment
and therefore it wasn’t necessarily myself at fault.
Visiting home was a blur of attempting to keep up with my two
nephews (of whom seem to have reached the age where their energy is boundless), spending the day having
drinks with my brother (in which I ended up buying more music tickets with him…sigh),
and of course in seeing you Emma! Although I was thoroughly enjoying my time
back home, I soon had to return to university for a meeting with my lecturer in
which we discussed my year’s progress (where I tried to draw her away from the subject of my terrible attendance)
and also next year’s options. We choose two modules, each being different areas
of film such as directing, producing, editing, camera, sound etc…and at the
minute, I’m caught up on three. Editing has always been a firm solid, as the
film industry, no matter how big or small the company, is always seeking
editors and so I’d always be guaranteed work. Also, editing is skill-based…once
you learn to fully utilise the software, you’re on par with most other editors
and can’t really succeed that point! Cinematography on the other hand, where my
heart is firmly planted, is fiercely competitive and you have to be good. Your success in the field is determined
on the lengths of your creativity, which has to surpass everybody else’s. Even
though it’s the one area I seem to be a natural at so far, I’m not going to be guaranteed
work. The final option is producing. Producing is essentially all the paperwork
that leads up to a film being made…they’re the first people involved in the
film and the last people home (…and fun fact, the producer is the one to cast
the director and the actors, they essentially have more power than the director!).
While producing isn’t the most enjoyable, it’s a well-paid and respectable career
and I thrive at anything involving organisation…so it isn’t so strange that I’ve
been drawn towards the idea of pursing it recently, but time will tell!
In other news, since returning to my flat I took the
opportunity while my fridge was empty to embark on a proper food shop in hopes of kick-starting into healthy eating once
again…boring I know, but it’s a good kind of change as recently I’ve become completely
idle when it comes to cooking, to the point where I just ditched full meals and
stuck to snacking which wasn’t exactly healthy. Now however, my fridge is stacked
high with fruit and veg, and I’m taking the time to ensure my diet is actually
clean. In addition, I’ve cut out all caffeine as the pounding headaches from
being without it for a day got to point where I couldn’t concentrate, something
that’s not handy for getting work
done. I’m expecting this to fly out the window soon however as, as of next
week, my friend is finally able to stay with me for the week and I can guarantee
a take-out pizza or two will sneak it’s way towards me.
Overall, I feel like the break away, the promise of a good
Easter holiday and a sudden clear outlook on my future career has left me
feeling the most ‘ok’ I have in months which is greatly appreciated, and for now
at least I am somewhat optimistic. I look forward to hearing back from you
both, and to hopefully seeing you in the near future!
Until next time,
Victoria
Victoria
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